Do we know ourselves?

 Do we know ourselves?

I woke up with a sudden jerk, I tried to open my eyes, once opening all I could see is utter darkness and a strange silence. My hands were tied back and my back was aching with pain. I felt that I was in some sort of damp storeroom, cellar or some unusual place. I couldn't remember what went on to me, I closed my eyes to wrap up something from the past. No effect at all. My mind flickered with some random images- a girl, a lamp, a scene in a nightclub and a gun. "Where am I exactly? Was I unconscious for a long time", I asked myself. I couldn't figure out what to do next, all I could do is to wait. My head was slightly spinning and my vision was still blurry. 

Suddenly, the door opened in front of me. It turns out that I was really in a small damp room. When the door opened, bright flashes of light fell into my eyes, from the light a person appeared. He was dressed in black from top to bottom, wearing a leather mask and in a hoodie. I couldn't see his face, and he said nothing. " Where am I, Why have you brought me here", I asked him. No reply. He just stood in front of me, saying not even a word. The room was strangely silent, all I could hear is my heart pounding fast, I was worried and worried at the same time. The hoodie man( my so-called kidnapper) uttered just a single sentence which shocked me. He said this line," Do you know yourself? Do you recognise your deeds?"." Why have you brought me here? Where am I? What have I done to you?", thousands of questions came from my mouth, my heart was beating fast.

 The person said nothing, he just placed a crumpled paper before my feet and left the room. I somehow managed to free myself from the tied position and picked up the paper. It was said, " You want to know about yourself, then let's play a game. Follow the address and reach the hotel. When outside, call the number. I will be waiting for you". I looked at the address. "Mmh, not far just a couple of minutes away", I thought to myself. When I reached the hotel, I called the number. The person said nothing, he just said," Room no.13" and hung up the phone. Strangely, there was no receptionist so I directly went to room no.13. "The door is open, should I enter the room?", the question struck my mind. Still, I entered the room. I was shocked to see the scene, I couldn't believe what I am watching. " No way, what I had done,  Jesus, what happened to me". Suddenly, my phone rang, the voice said," What are you waiting for Markus? Haven't you enough? Do you think you or we know yourselves? Finalize what you have started."

Now I remember everything. I kidnapped Gina, whom I encountered in a nightclub. I brought her here to this precise room of the hotel. She was insisting on a room with a nice lamp, to enjoy the night. Suddenly, what happened my mind lost grip over my body. I picked up a knife and started stabbing Gina, she cried with pain and horror. She shouted for help but of no use. After that, I blew off her face with a gun and left the hotel. I had become a beast, a devil, animality and rage flowed inside the veins of my body, my brain had stopped working and my conscience urged me not to stop. I was taken control by some unseen power or spirit that constantly encouraged me to finish the work. But why, I asked myself, my hands and feet shaking with panic and disgusted, I was hating myself saw my hands turned red with blood, I was a murderer. The phone rang, the same voice said" We don't know who are we Markus, we try to control the world, understand the reality, find the answers to the innumerable question. But in reality, we are just"ANIMALS". I picked up the gun, present in front of me and fired straight my heart two times. I fell to the ground, blood everywhere, I saw the kidnapper entered the room, he opened his mask, it was none other than Markus, the wanted serial killer. I laughed at him and said" You have lost, Markus", he snapped his fingers and I blacked out.                            

From, Martin X